dear dairy (lost chance)
I am so sorry, I am not who I used to be. I changed. You changed me.
You taught me how to live without you. It was hard, but I learned.
I see how you long for things to be as it were before the break.
I would have loved it so, few months ago when i was near death.
I , hoping you would show up or at least replied my messages.
You never did.
You see, the truth is I killed the me you used to know so as to live.
You can never meet that me again.
Maybe it wasn’t a good idea letting you back into my life after all.
Let the truth be told , I was really doing well without you and you know it.
You had your chance but you chose to treat me like you did.
I had never been so hurt in my life and will never be.
Yours brokenhearted G.